The smoke in Gods nostrils...the fire in His heart that burn...

The day that Osama bin Laden was killed, everyone who has been in fear and anger because of him experienced joy and release. The man that was able to bring America to her downfall- by terrorizing her with fear was gone. But then what?..has the fear left?

I will talk to you about another terrorist, the enemy that so many are at war with daily without knowing it…and he can not be taken captive and killed..and this terrorist take captive so many, and makes slaves of them all…it is like a never ending night mare.

God says in Isaiah 65.-

“ a people who walk in a way that is not good, according to their own thoughts, a people who provoke me to anger continually to my face. Who sacrifice in the gardens, and burn incense on the altars of bricks, who sit among the graves, and spend the night in the tombs, who eat swines flesh, ..who says; do not come near me, because I am holier than you!.. THESE are the smoke in my Nostrils , a fire that burns all day”..

What is God talking about?... who are these people?. Those who eat the flesh of the swine, would be all the western people, and all the asian people. Those who burn incense and sacrifice in the gardens could be anyone in the east or in the Catholic church..and those who say; “ do not come near me, cause I am holier than you!..that could be: us all !

I will show you the monster that make fire burn all day in Gods heart, and smoke come out of his nostrils…

“ many being ignorant of Gods righteousness , and seeking to establish their own righteousness , have not submitted to the righteousness of God”…rom.10.

When I was a child I grew up in a family where my dad was active in the protestant church and very legalistic in His ways, also with us kids( 8)…my mum was a rebel against anything that was legalistic and dead- she wanted the presence of Gods spirit, and so she welcomed to her home travelling preachers, for some spirit filled meetings. You can imagine what kind of war zone my surroundings was..even when no words were spoken. As Paul says; The one born of the flesh persecuted the one born of the spirit..( Isak and Ismael) those two can never be in unity..one of them have to be cast out!..Gal.4.29..

In other words; Gods righteousness and my own can not be in the same house..in the same heart.

Not easy to cast out one of them if you are married to him/her.is it?...if you are trained in building your own righteousness, it is not easy to stop doing so.. and every human is born married to his own righteousness…seeing to establish it from a very early age. You hear kids say; “ I did not do it, she did- pointing to the one year old sister..” they are working on building their city of their own righteousness .

I grew up observing this war, and feeling the pressure from it all…I was happy to leave home at the age of 16. I wanted to live for Jesus, I wanted to be in His presence, and I was just as rebellious against any legalistic laws and man made rules as my mother, but the inside enemy- the law of God laughed at me, because he had his home inside me, so running away did not help much…and it terrorized me every day ..and so I was building my own righteousness at the same time as I was trusting Gods- but that is not possible, because you cant build a city in the midst of a war…you can not serve two masters..you will love one of them and hate the other…

My enemy spoke to me like this; “ you are better than that person..” and I would feel good about myself…..then he said; “ you are worse than everyone here”…and so I would go into depression, and fear always followed me around.… I wanted to pray for my friends, and this voice said; “ you forgot to pray for him or her today, maybe something bad will happen to them now…” and so my intercessory list became longer and longer as I built on my righteousness, doing everything right.. until it chocked me, and Gods spirit said; “ burn your intercessory list, and do not pray for anyone, unless I tell you so”…and he did not tell me so for at least one year…it sure was difficult, but so long time did it take before my enemy inside stopped nagging me about the need to pray for someone.

I moved and lived many places, always hoping for life to get better, but everywhere I went I encountered my enemy. To open the bible is enough- it is right there- speaking to me through Gods laws.

” O wretched man I am , who will deliver me from this body of death?...For I delight in the law of God , but I see another law warring against it, bringing me into captivity.”. Rom.7.

I went to church but they were all building on their own righteousness, so my inside enemy was there too.., I went to some home and met him there too- always pointing his finger towards me , accusing me of not being good enough for God..and then when I broke down in tears, he comforted me with his : but you are better than most people..”…and so I went from peace in knowing that I have Gods righteousness to work on building my own…. A terrible stressful life.

I married a man that was Christian…and most Christians do so, but have you ever considered which side he is on in this war between “ the one born of the free woman , and the one born of the slave woman” ?..do think about that when you want to marry someone, don’t be blinded about the fact that he /she says he /she is a Christian.… I experienced that I was in the same situation that my parents had been in. With war going on the inside against this legalistic terrorizing enemy of mine, and then also in my home....life was as it is for most people..but I was tired ….all I wanted was the rest that Jesus talks about.

Have you ever heard about someone trying to rebuild a city while a war is going on in that same city?..I guess not. Everyone knows that you wait until the war is finished , and then you rebuild the city.

BUT if you go to some church , you will find that they try to rebuild lives while the war between the spirit of God and His righteousness on one side, and the law of God and my own righteousness on the other side..- that is not working!..what you build up in 3 days of counseling or preachings, the enemy inside will tear down in just one night..and so there is no progress.

The spirit OPPOSE the flesh, so those two can never be friends, or in agreement with each other. And so the righteousness of God oppose my own righteousness inside me..and work against it with every possible weapon.

Jesus said that a House divided will not stand..it will not be able to survive the war.

I was divided in my inner life, and so my body did not do well. I struggled with my health. My soul did not do well, I struggled with depression. My mind was captured with fear, and so even to read the bible was difficult, because there you read so many laws, and so the Bin laden terrorist inside me made use of the bible to teach me what was lawful to do or not…and judged me or praised me as he wished, but to me it was all terror.

Paul said “ there is no condemnation for those who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the spirit. For the law of the spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death” Rom.8 “

I continued to seek Jesus and ask for deliverance from fear and depression, because I wanted the peace and the rest that He is talking about. How could I cast out “ the one born according to the flesh” who lived inside my house( by body )…and warred against” The one born according to the spirit”…Gal 4. These two represents two covenants, and they can never agree on any peace.

” These things are symbolic, for these are the two covenants; the one from mount Sinai which gives birth to BONDAGE…now we brethren are, as Isaac was are children of Promise..we are not children of the bond woman , but of the free”- Gal 4

It is always encouraging to read something from the bible that says that you are free, blessed and saved- right?...but then as you close the book and lie awake at night, the voice comes and says; yea , you are free right?…don’t you know that to be really free you have to,. you ought to.., you should…that is what the pastor said too, was it not? And that sure is what the bible says....to be free is to follow all of Gods laws….and you do not do so”..then he lean back and laugh at you…and your troubled mind find no rest.

The truth is not told you, but the truth is that no matter how hard you try to obey Gods laws, you will not be able to keep up with it all the time, and so you end up in a curse, because cursed is everyone who do not obey it ALL…even to break one of them , leaves you cursed, but ofcourse the self righteous voice inside us , don’t tell us so..nor do the pastors., but keep talking about being blessed for obeying its laws.

To be married is to be one body and soul with the one you are married too..right?...and so it is with this our own righteousness too ; to be married to the law oriented and law protector inside us is to be one with him in body and soul..how do we find freedom from such a marriage?..only if one of us die. And praise God- Jesus said that we DIED together with him , when he died…So we have died , and are released from our enemy, from the Law that did us no good, because we were not able to keep it....we don’t have to build on our righteousness anymore, we are FREE!!

Paul writes; “ but you have been delivered from the law, having died to what we were held by, so that we should serve in the newness of the spirit, and NOT in the oldness of the letter” Rom.7

As my life went on , I one day found myself alone in an apartment I could not afford, my 4 kids was not with me , and I had lost all honor I ever had. I was divorced through my own choice, the kids lived with their dad, and I had fallen prey for immorality -against my own will. I had lost all honor in church, among family( some even don’t want to see me)…and also lost some friends…as I was sitting there in the dark talking with Jesus, I suddenly saw something; the monster on the inside had lost its power over me- I was free !!... The self righteousness monster had moved out from my HOUSE, it was defeted- God had done a miracle. The only one left was the spirit of God and faith in HIS righteousness.. .I had nothing , and I had everything !!.

I was free to be “ married” to only one- To Jesus!..to the spirit of life!.. I was no longer in that destructive war between building my own righteousness and submitting to Gods..I had submitted to Gods righteousness, and I felt so free “

I could meet anyone who struggled in life with love, and not with any, “ I am better that you”..aditude inside, because that self rightousness enemy had lost its power ..

I believe that God uses whatever he can in this battle in this City that I or you are. He don’t mind seeing us falling into sin, he don’t mind us doing wrong stuff, he don’t mind us coming to the end of all our power to withstand any temptations at all…he don’t mind, because he is after the enemy , and that is not the sin we may fall into, it is the righteousness that we build on inside..the city we try to build, to be “ good” and do right in the eyes of God... the monster in us who says, “ don’t come near me, because I am holier than you”...

I love the law of God, and it is Good in all its ways..but I am not married to it. I once was married to two at the same time ; the law of God and the spirit of God, and as everyone knows who have tried to have two wives or men.lol,.. it only creates war!... But I love it from a free heart, and find no delight anymore in eating anything made from the swine either, because I know how it makes God feel, if I eat it ..and how it makes my body do bad too..

The law of God is s a terrible master to anyone who bow down to it, because it bring a curse…because we use it to build our own righteousness .., until it become a strong self made city on the inside.. This righteousness makes the stomack of God turn, it make his heart burn of anger, and the smoke comes out from his nostrils ..because it is rebellion against HIM, against his authority and it destroys humans in hell fire. It is the same as sacrificing in the gardens, the same as sitting among the dead, the same as eating the flesh of a mouse..or the flesh of a pig…( in Gods eyes the flesh of the swine and the mouse is the same awful thing) To build on our own righteousness is nothing else than pride, idolatry and rebellion against God.

WHY?..because this monster, this righteousness is the devils own heart and desire..his prideful rebellion against Gods righteousness and ways.. it is what made God throw Him out of heaven, , but then he multiplied his own evil monster aditude in all of Gods created beings! ...He invaded Gods created humans, and terrorizes them from within..and what does he use as his weapons- the law of God! He takes what is good and uses it against us… and as long as people seek to obey the law, they are actually in bondage to the devil… .and forced to do his will.. That is what we got from seeking to know the difference between right and wrong 

When a war has ended, there is a time to bury the dead , clean up the mess, and rebuild the city…

So when a human being has been delivered from the selfrighteous monster, and the legalistic beast is no longer roaming around in the house, and he has submitted to the righteousness of God, and no longer try to make his own…then Jesus can clean up our messy life, and give new strength to our weakened body, soul and hearth . That was and is His ministry…Is 61 says it all.

“ to bind up the brokenhearted, to heal the sick and proclaim an open door to those who was bond..”

Then the city that we are can be rebuilt on FAITH in Jesus Christ!...and His righteousness only!!!!

So what do we do to keep the Terrorist , outside of our city?.how do we keep holding on to the righteousness we have in Jesus when faced with this terror enemy all around us?

Well…any saying that goes like this; I ought to…I should… these are no longer welcomed in our life , nor used..ban them from your life.

When our old husband ( this monster)..comes to our door and say; “ please let me in, and I will show you who you are in Christ!...then I answer, NO! you are not welcomed here, and I don’t need to know who I am in Christ, because I know who HE IS!.and it is not about me anymore, it is all about him!

When he comes to your door and say; welcome me in, and I will tell you 10 steps to victory”…then I say; NO!, you are not welcomed, and I don’t need 10 step to victory because Jesus has won the victory and I only need one step- to go to Him in every situation I encounter.”

When he whispers into your ear; “ listen my love, you are the most pretty one, the most intelligent one, much better in every way than ….. or ….”. then I turn around and say; “ away from me satan, because God alone do I serve, and I will not bow down to any idol..( myself)

When he tries again and say” dear anita, you have failed again, how could you do that..you are such a looser…” then I turn around and say; “ so what!, I am not married to you anymore, you have no right to tell me what is right or wrong…I belong to another one now..and he is prefect in all his ways”

When he says; “ welcome me inside, and I will show you the blessings you have in the law of God”..then I say; there is no blessing in that law, because cursed is everyone who try to live by it, but breaks one of the commandments, so there is ONLY curses in that law..get away from me deceiver..I am blessed because I have the righteousness of Jesus, no other reason”

The house, our body is a temple for the Holy spirit, and so we must be careful to set guards on our walls..because our old husband always looks for ways to come back in, and he don’t mind using the word of God to do so.… WE are dead , and released from the legal marriage to him, but he is still alive.. he is not dead. Keep being submitted to Gods righteousness, and the Law will be of no problem for you, you will see Gods wisdom in it instead, and see how amazing Jesus is.

The spirit of God inside us. He is our guide, he is our comforter, He is the TRUTH, he is Gods mercy with us…He is the victorious one, the perfect one, the everlasting God. WE need to be faithful to him, and not “ flirt” with our old husband….because we don’t want to go back to bondage – do we ?

Enter the peace, the resting place in Jesus!...

There will be no peace among the Israelis and the arabs,..even if they had their own land, because the war between self rightousness and the spirit are going on inside the border of Israel, inside the church…and inside the borders of the arabs. So even with ending some outside war, there will be no peace on the inside unless people submit to the righteousness God..which is JESUS CHRIST!.

To God be the glory, through Jesus Christ we find rest, peace and freedom!

“ For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes..” Rom 10.

What I am writing about may not be understood by all, and it is difficult stuff…please ask questions if you have them…because maybe I have written in a way that creates misunderstandings, so I would like to make things more clear.

Anita